On 9/11 I worked as a pilot
for US Airways, based at DCA and living in Brooklyn, New
York. My girlfriend, Nancy Law, worked as a pilot for United
Airlines and lived in Annapolis, MD, where I often stayed
before/after my trips.
Today, Nancy and I are married
and both work for the new United—me at the Continental
subsidiary, Nancy for legacy United.
I wrote this on September
14, 2001, and put it in a file. This is the first time I’ve
taken it out in many years.
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14 Sept 2001
I wonder if the collective
images of the jets slamming into the World Trade Center and
the massive towers crumbling to the ground really do carve
out small pieces of my soul. Because it feels like it. I’m
going to record what it was like to be a human being on
9.11.01. More specifically, an American, and more specific
still, a member of the New York City community, the
Washington, DC, community, the aviation community. It was
absolute hell on earth—not the murky, nonspecific version of
hell, but the hell on earth we all imagine, full of fire,
acrid smoke, deafening noise—and wailing. Full of searching
for loved ones—they could have been in the buildings or
possibly in the air, maybe even flying the doomed planes
before they were taken over. The blackest, most unimaginable
day, fully realized.
The alarm went off at 4:30
am. Nance had to leave the house at 5 to get to National
Airport by 6 to fly to Chicago at 7. I awoke for under a
minute as she crawled from bed, and then I fell back asleep,
pillow over my head.
Nance leaned over me and
kissed me good-bye.
I woke again to the alarm at
6 a.m., ate some food, watched some TV, drank a lot of
water. I opened up a box of pilot shirts that had been
delivered a few days earlier. They were the wrong brand, and
I was pissed (how petty this would seem later). I had to
work in a few hours. I headed out the door to drive to the
trail for a 12-mile training run. The New York City Marathon
is just under two months away.
Stopped for batteries at
WaWa. No batteries. No Discman today.
Started my run at 8:16 a.m.
It was a beautiful day. Perfect, in fact. Blue sky. Clear.
Birds singing. Not many people with me at first. Then a
smattering of moms with baby carriages. Some bikers. Some
runners. It’s pretty secluded on some sections of the
Baltimore-Annapolis trail—definitely a removed place. I was
in my own world anyway, concentrating on my body and the
run. I felt good.
I passed an intersection
near a drug store. I thought, “I could have gotten batteries
here and could be listening to the Stones right now.” I
noticed a sign outside that said it opened at 9. I looked at
my watch. It was around 8:45. Oh, well, the silence wasn’t
so bad. This is around the time the first jet was flown into
the World Trade Center.
I ran to my halfway point,
turning around at one of the more remote areas of the trail.
I still felt good. I fueled up. It was getting hotter, and I
was sweating pretty good.
At around the 10-mile mark
of my run, a guy came from behind. He had a Walkman on. He
looked at me as he passed and smiled and said, “How ya doin?”
He sounded really enthusiastic. I said, “Good—almost done!”
He continued past me, and I used him as a pacer.
I finished right behind him
and went straight to the trail map posted there. I wanted to
make sure I had done 12 miles. As I searched for my
turnaround point, I heard a broadcast from a parked truck
that was unloading in the lot adjacent to the trail. I heard
some words—“possible second aircraft,” “South Tower,” "World
Trade Center,” “Pentagon.” I squinted my eyes and strained
to hear and said out loud, “WHAT?” My pacer said, “Yeah, I
just heard on my radio—a plane crashed into the World Trade
Center and the Pentagon is on fire.”
I ran to my car, a few
hundred feet away. As I ran past the truck with the radio
blaring, the driver happened to close the door, and I
couldn’t hear it anymore. I ran faster. When I reached the
car, I fumbled frantically for the keys. I knew something
very, very wrong had happened. I could feel it then and
there.
I climbed into the car,
completely sweat-covered and slimy, and turned on the radio.
It was a DJ for DC 101, a rock station. There was news
reporting. I heard something about a hijacking. The DJ
started shouting, “Get me the goddamn FEED! I don’t want the
. . . I want the GODDAMN FEED!” I switched the station.
Peter Jennings of ABC—a familiar voice. Just in time to hear
a field reporter say something like, “THE ENTIRE SOUTH TOWER
HAS COMPLETELY COLLAPSED—LIKE WHEN A BUILDING IS
DEMOLISHED.” Jennings was watching. He said, “Dear God.” I
could picture his mouth open. It sounded like his fingers
were covering it. I started to cry, right there. I didn’t
want to believe it was really the World Trade Center, but
from what they were saying, it was. My mind created an image
of the tower crumbling, and it was pretty much exactly the
same image as the replay I saw later on TV.
I started the car and raced
the streets to get to Nance’s house. The newspeople said it
was an American Eagle commuter aircraft that was hijacked
and crashed into the first tower (this was obviously
inaccurate). I beat the steering wheel and yelled, “F#*&ers!”
Then they said something about a Continental jet or commuter
jet crashing into the Pentagon (also obviously inaccurate),
which was on fire. The Pentagon was only 30 miles away.
Nancy was flying. I needed a phone, and I needed a TV. I
remember looking at other drivers through their windshields
to see if they were as shocked as me, or crying. I couldn’t
tell. More words from the newspeople—terrorism, Osama bin
Laden. What’s going ON? Somewhere around this time, I heard
of the second aircraft crashing into the other tower. It was
leaning. It had all happened already, completely encompassed
by my 12-mile run. And, of course, it would all be different
afterward.
First Officer Michael Paredes, Continental |